Saturday, May 25, 2013

We've Only Known You 2 Weeks


 
But man have we learned a lot....
 
-You are like a ninja in the swaddle!  While Daddy is WAYYYY better at swaddling you than Mommy, you still manage to work your little arms out.
-And those arms...they are always moving!  And your fingers - you love them!  You love to put them in your mouth, ball them up in fists of fury, try to hold the bottle, and just in general move them all around!
-You are a pretty chill baby - we've been out to eat 3 times at nice restaurants and various fast food joints as well.  On the way home from the hospital we even stopped at McDonald's because mommy was craving a cheeseburger (truth - I actually had two).  You've also been to Oakland Nursery twice ~ which is good because Mommy loves it there!
-I never noticed how jacked up our neighborhood sidewalks are (even though I ran what seems like hundreds of miles on them) - but this does not phase you one bit - you love a good walk around the block...it always conks you out!
-You like to snooze on other people...probably more than you like your crib!  And speaking of your crib...putting you in the crib was quite possibly one of the hardest things we've had to do to date.  I looked over at Daddy in the middle of the night and he had a death grip on the monitor and it was shoved right up under his chin.  We've since relaxed a little and just put the monitors on our night stands...but man I hope it gets easier!
-While Mommy struggles with pumping and navigating formula feeding - you are happy as a clam to eat whatever is in the bottle.  I'm forever grateful for this - it's hard out there for a mom.  As my friend Sarah says, "a man likely coined the term, breast is best" because honestly it's not easy.  Putting my boobs in the pump is like shoving them in a torture chamber (yep, I went there - we're in the trust tree now) and I dream of putting that pump behind the back wheels of my car and running it over repeatedly.  Personally, I think we should go easy on all moms...they are doing the best they can. 
-Bath time is not your favorite.  You scream your head off as Daddy and I struggle through sponging you down.  But, I do love washing your hair and using the brush the hospital sent home with us...and oh lord do you smell good when it's all over.  I literally want to cuddle you to my chest and never let go.
-Your umbilical cord stump is weird - Daddy was especially paranoid about it.  We did not get water anywhere near it and eventually I opened up your onesie and thought you had a turd on the outside.  I freaked out thinking "how did it get on the outside??"  Then, I realized your cord stump fell off!  Silly Mommy!
-You will surely shower us in a fountain of pee if we are not careful.  The first time this happened was in the hospital.  We were busy inspecting your diaper for any sign of pee or poop and low and behold you sprayed us!  Mommy and Daddy were jumping around like fools...not quite sure what to do...it got everywhere!  We cleaned you up and got a new diaper on - and have since learned to be quick with a diaper change or have a burp cloth at the ready to throw over you in case of showers!
-Getting out the door with a newborn is no joke.  We were on the way to Menchi's for frozen yogurt...and wouldn't you know we didn't have the diaper bag!?  (#newparentproblems)  And then you have to remember to repack the diaper bag with clothes, diapers, and bottles if necessary.  Whatever time I think we need to leave the house - I'm going to add about 20 minutes to the front end of that because we will most likely not be running on time.
-How did people survive without I-phones??  It makes keeping in touch so easy!  Sending pictures, texts, and composing Facebook posts -- it's all just a click away.  Not to mention all the apps to help you not lose your mind!  And, Max loves the camera...so it's hard not to take his picture 24/7!
 
Mostly though...I've been so impressed with how other moms (and dads too) treat you.  Everyone genuinely wants the best for you.  From the people in line at babies r' us to the cashiers at the grocery store - they tell you how cute your baby is...how great you look...whisper encouraging words on recovery...like your pictures on Facebook...send you positive texts...and all in all it feels great.  It feels like I'm not alone...like we can do this...and we ARE!  So, thanks everyone - we love you all and can't wait for you to meet Max! 


Friday, May 24, 2013

Birth Story - Maxwell James

Hello friends and family!

I wasn't sure how this blog would evolve once our wee man was here - but I've decided to try and keep it up as best I can (with a newborn and all ;)  While Maxwell was born two weeks ago (holy moly time is already flying)...I think I'm ready to tell his birth story.  As I learned throughout my pregnancy - things don't always go as planned and Max's birth is another example of life teaching me to go with the flow...

After our 41 week appointment and the non-stress test - we were pretty sure that our little guy wasn't going to arrive on his own - so, we were ready for the induction on Wednesday May 8.  It's so crazy to go to bed one night as a family of two and wake up the next morning knowing your life is going to change in such a crazy way.  The morning of May 8 - we set our alarms, showered, packed all the bags in the car, and I ate my "last meal".  Once they start the pitocin at the hospital - you can't have anything to eat...so I cooked up some eggs and toast for breakfast.  We drove to Riverside Hospital in semi-silence...each thinking about the day ahead of us I'm sure.  There was some traffice on 315 and I started to panic like we weren't going to make it on time and somehow that would mean that we wouldn't get induced..but we pulled into the parking lot at Riverside Women's Center with a couple minutes to spare.  Even though we took the hospital tour and knew to ride the elevator to the third floor and follow yellow - we stood in front of the wrong elevators for a couple minutes until a hospital staff member directed us to the correct ones. 

We stepped out on the third floor and made our way to the nurse's window.  A nurse checked us in and then directed us to the waiting room.  We only had to wait about ten minutes until a nice man came to register us.  He took our insurance card and hefty payment - then gave us wrist bracelets and turned us over to a nurse.  The nurse walked us back to our birthing room and told me to put on the hospital gown.  Once she left - I sat on the edge of the bed and looked at Rob.  I think I was still trying to be modest at this point (this makes me laugh now...as I'm sure by the time I left the hospital everyone had seen my business) - but I did what she said and got dressed.  The birthing center was very crowded this particular morning and a bit short staffed...so we got the head nurse!  Nurse Robin encouraged me to lay back in the bed as she asked me my medical history.  Once that task was complete...my IV needed to be started.  I have never had an IV before and apparently I'm a bleeder!  She stuck the needle in and blood squirted everywhere!!  She was trying to tape the IV into place and blood was still oozing all over my arm - gross.  The IV was connected to saline drip and the pitocin.  They started the pitocin dose at 8:40 am...very low and turned it up every half hour.  At this point, Robin turned us over to Charlene - our new nurse and on her way out said - "my shift ends about 4, let's try to have a baby by then!" I said, "that sounds great...I hope so!" (again - this makes me laugh now too...)

We were Charlene's only patients so she could really spend some time with us and monitor everything via the computer.  I should also mention that Robin had hooked me up to a fetal heart rate monitor (around my belly) and also a monitor for contractions.  Charlene was closely watching the pitocin drip and turning it up.  From about 8:30 am to 12:00 pm, I was feeling pretty good.  In fact, I watched an episode of Scandal, pinned some things to my pinterest boards, texted, and chatted with all those that came in the room.  Charlene was a little concerned because my contractions were getting closer together...but not increasing in intensity (which is unusual).  Everytime I felt a contraction, I would just mentally count to 40 and it would usually be over - again, they were bearable at this point.  Stacy texted that she was leaving work and my parents were also enroute from Dayton. 

Once Stacy arrived, my doctor also popped in.  Dr. Vanek was on call the whole day - so it was nice to see a familiar face.  She decided it was time to break my water around 1:00 pm.  I was initially very nervous about this, but she said the bag of waters has no nerves around it...so I wouldn't feel anything really.  She used what I can only describe as a crochet looking hook - inserted it and gave a little tug.  I felt a huge gush of warm water.  Afterward she said because of how the bag of waters was situated it probably would have never broken on it's own - so I guess it's a good thing she intervened.  As we learned in birth class - the water acts like a bubble - keeping the pressure of the baby's head off your cervix.  So...once the bag is gone...the pressure builds - and it certainly did! 

Stacy and Rob got me through the rest of the afternoon with magazines, tv shows (Ellen!), changing labor positions (I liked bouncing on the ball and sitting upright in the rocker), and just in general making me laugh.  It should be noted that my parents got in a HUGE traffic jam on the way to Columbus - it took them two hours to go about ten miles.  Yikes!  It was also around this time that I started to feel a lot of pressure in my lower back - thank goodness Charlene was able to secure me a "sweet sock".  It's basically a sock that is full of rice.  You can heat the sockin the microwave and put it on your back...which is just what I did :)  This eased the pain for a little bit....it also helped to have unlimited popsicles!  You know I love me some popsicles...and they had cherry!  I blew through about four of those and a cup of chipped ice - at this point I was starting to feel what I would consider real pain...

Charlene was on her way out and my new nurse Lauren was in! I liked Lauren immediately - she was young like us and expecting twins herself!  She checked my cervix and told me that I was in good shape to get an epidural if I wanted one (I was at 5 cm) and I definitely did.  My parents also arrived around this time - with beautiful orange roses from Poppy (my 90 year old grandpa).  Since I would be getting the epidural soon - they left to get dinner in the cafeteria with Stacy.  Not long after they left, the anestheologist came in.  I had to sign my life away in order to get the epidural.  I scooted to the edge of the bed and bared my back to her....and then I got really nervous.  I was shaking really bad and the anestheoglogist had to remind me to stay still.  (but really - they are shooting a really long needle in your back...so....I'm not sure it's possible to stay still).  Once the needle is in - they tape it down and give you a game show like clicker.  You can press the clicker to receive a little boost of the epidural (only every 20 minutes).  Also, because it's numbing you from the waist down, I had to get a catheter...sweet! 

Everyone encouraged me to try and "get some rest" and "sleep" during this time as I would need my energy later.  My parents and Stacy left to take their bags to her house and watch Survivor (and yes, they are probably the only people still watching this show).  Lauren helped me get into the side lying position with one leg up and I tried...I really did...to sleep.  But an hour into things - I was in a lot of pain still.  I kept thinking that something wasn't right...I shouldn't be able to feel this.  Lauren said she could check me again and I about lost it when she said..."well you're almost at 10 cm"!  What?!!!  I went from 5 cm to 10 cm in about an hour! Rob texted my parents to hurry back.  However, baby's head was still facing the wrong direction.  He was face up instead of face down.  So, before you can push, they want you try different labor positions to turn the baby.  Unfortunately the labor position of choice for this task, involves your bottom being high in the air with your forehead resting on your hands.  At this point...my modesty flew out the window because I just wanted the baby to be here!!  I stick my tush out in the air for all to see for about twenty minutes.  The whole time I can definitely still feel contractions and was fighting the urge to push.  I tell Lauren I can't do it anymore and she tells me I can sit more upright in the bed to relieve some of the back labor.  She also gets the okay from Dr.Vanek to start pushing when I'm ready. 

The pushing process is no joke.  We begin pushing at 10:20.  Everytime I feel a contraction, Rob goes to one leg and Lauren the other.  They hold my legs as I push three times - each time counting to ten.  I tuck my chin to my chest and exhale, while pushing with the same muscles you use to poop (gross but true).  Occasionally, Lauren will check my progress while I'm pushing - she says I'm making progress...but I feel like it's three steps forward and one step back.  I'm a sweaty, heavy breathing mess - and I'm so tired.  So, so tired.  I push for an hour and half and I swear I'm feeling everything (is the epidural even working??).  At this point, Lauren brings in Dr. Vanek - she says that while I'm making some progress, the baby's head keeps getting sucked back up the birth canal.  She offers me some choices - I can rest and keep pushing or I can have the c-section we've talked about since 36 weeks.  I feel awful because I know Dr. Vanek's shift ended at 8:00 pm and it's now 11:40...but she's so kind.  She tells me to stop worrying about her and concentrate on the baby.  Lauren and Dr.Vanek leave and I turn to Rob - with tears in my eyes I say "I don't think I can do this any longer...I think I want to go forward with the c-section".  Smart man says, "whatever you want to do, I just want you and the baby to be healthy". 

Once we tell Lauren we would like to move forward with the c-section - it's all business.  I say a quick good-bye to my mom and Stacy.  Rob is thrown some scrubs and I'm quickly wheeled to the operating room.  In the operating room, it takes four people to lift me and roll me from the birthing bed to the operating table.  The anestheologist ups the dose for the epidural using the same port on my back.  Dr. Vanek starts brushing a scalpel lightly against my abdomen and asking if I can feel it.  Yes, I can feel it.  I start to panick, thinking they will cut me and I will feel everything.  Dr. Vanek reassures me they will not.  However, I know time is of the essence.  So, the anesthologist hovers over me with an oxygen mask - she tells me to take two deep breaths and I might feel sleepy.  Next thing I know - I'm out!  Apparently I had to be completely intubated and put under...what??!!

I awake in the recovery room.  I see Lauren in front of me and Rob to the side of me with our son!  He explains they had to put me under (and later tells me I was acting like a nut job as I was coming to).  I immediately ask if Max has a pig nose.  I had convinced myself because of the weird profile picture on the 41 week ultrasound that he would have a pig nose.  Rob says he doesn't - he's beautiful...which he is!  He is 8 pounds 13 ounces and 19.5 inches long...a big guy!  Rob places him on my chest and we do some kangaroo care (chest to chest).  It's so surreal to have this baby...who grew inside me for ten months...now be on the outside.  And, he's so cute and perfect...and has great hair!  We stay in the recovery room for about an hour - soaking in our son - Maxwell James Hauck.  I just can't stop thinking about how Rob and I made this perfect little human - and I swear it's like my heart grew three sizes.  Maxwell has certainly captured our hearts and we can't imagine our life without him... so many great adventures ahead...and memories to be made...we can't wait!

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Final Thoughts!

Went back to the doctor on Monday - had our ultrasound.  Little man is about nine pounds (give or take) and pretty squished in there...but obviously not uncomfortable enough to want to come out.  He is also head down still but facing the wrong way if that makes sense?  Babies usually come out with their eyes facing the ground....but he is face up!  Most of what I've read just says that makes it all the more uncomfortable on mom and possible back labor...sweet.  My doctor suggested bouncing on the exercise ball which I fully intend to do. 

After visiting the doctor she also wanted me to do a non stress test...which I think they should call a stress test.  During the NST (non stress test) they strap two monitors to you - one to measure your contractions and one to measure fetal heart rate.  They also give you a game show like clicker that you are supposed to press everytime the baby moves.  The contraction belt wasn't too bad because I wasn't having contractions.  The fetal belt - kept sliding all over the place. Literally by the time it was all over, I had the ultrasound gel all over my stomach and clothes.  It just ketp sliding down my belly and then we would have to start over because it would lose the baby's heart rate. Also - they don't tell you up front that they are looking for a certain pattern of fetal movement along with spikes in heartrate.  The little man was super active during the ultrasound so my doctor said the NST would probably only take 10 minutes.....well he must have gone to sleep because there was not a lot of movement.  They gave me ice water to see if that would cause him to be more active - no such luck.  Then, they had me lay on my left side to see if he would respond....which he didn't.  (See, how he is already showing us that he runs the show??)  Keep in mind that during all this - the monitor that you are hooked up to is spitting out a piece of paper (like an EKG) for the doctor to read.  So, the whole time I'm just thinking...we are failing....there is no way they are letting us leave....boo.  But, after an hour, the doctor cleared us! 

All that completed - but no change in dilation or effacement bascially means that come tomorrow morning at 8:00 AM we will go to Riverside Hospital for an induction.  While this isn't how I pictured our delivery...I'm okay with it.  I'm coming around to the idea that probably things won't always go the way I think they will.  Bottom line, I want the baby to be safe and I'm willing to do whatever to ensure that happens :)  (and if it's not too much to ask...please keep ladytown as intact as possible....)

That makes tonight our last night...just the two of us!  So weird to think that tomorrow there will be one more little person in the world - half me and half Rob (100% awesome...obviously).  And we will be in charge of this little person.  I'm pretty used to teaching kids for the day and sending them home.  I mean, we're pretty awesome pet parents...but this is a whole new experience for us!  So, send us postive thoughts and vibes...be patient with us (we may not be so great at returning phone calls right away)...and we might look eight shades of crazy (or is that everyday?) as we adjust to our new normal :)  Love to you all!!

40 Weeks!

How far along? 40 Weeks and 5 days
Total weight gain: up 31 lbs. (lost a few pounds by my 38 week appointment.. so strange)
Maternity clothes? um yes - some of the outfits I'm wearing just seem riduculous - but I'm not buying any more maternity clothes...so I will continue to try and make it through with the three pieces of clothing that are still comfortable!
Stretch marks? yes
Sleep: pretty good this week - I'm still waking up to use the bathroom but I feel rested in the morning...so I'll take it!
Best moment this week: continuing to soak up the last moments of being pregnant...Rob and I's nightly walks around the neighborhood (one got cut a little short because of a bathroom emergency :)  We also got a last minute baby gift from a friend...and it was some really cute outfits and a christening bonnet!
Miss Anything? yes and no - being pregnant has been pretty wonderful overall so I feel bad complaining.  The only funny thing is that I saw a can next my car in the parking lot at the Zoo - it was a Bud Light combined with Strawberry Margarita (Beerita) and my mouth literally started watering!! 
 Movement: oh yes - lots of movement still...which I will for sure miss when he's on the outside!
Food cravings: I don't have any true cravings...but at the grocery last night we bought some food I wouldn't normally buy under the assumption that it's my last few days of being pregnant and not feeling bad about a few cookies!
Anything making you queasy or sick: no
Gender: Boy

Labor Signs: On Friday evening, I woke up about four in the morning in a little abdominal pain - my stomach just really hard and then eventually it subsided.  It took me a moment to figure out that I was probably having a contraction.  I got up, used the bathroom and went downstairs...they kept coming for about three hours.  I bounced around on an exercise ball that Stacy gave me and that seemed to really help manage the discomfort.  It wasn't horrible pain - just uncomfortable.  Eventually they subsided about 7:00 AM and I fell asleep on the couch.  They were likely Braxton Hicks - but hopefully that means little man is packing his bags!!
Symptoms: Backaches if I sit for too long - and this week the weather warmed...so lots of swollen fingers and toes!
Belly Button in or out? out
Wedding rings on or off? off

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy & EXCITED to say the least!
Looking forward to: His arrival - hopefully soon!! 

Thursday, May 2, 2013

The State of my Uterus...I'm still pregnant!

Today is May 2.  I've had this day marked on every calendar I own for nine months now.  Even before we went to our first doctor's appointment, I used one of those online birth date predictors to know when the due date would be.  Basically I've learned real quickly though whose actually in charge here...and sadly it's not me :( haha!  It's not a feeling I'm used too...  I also figured out today that baby will be born under the Taurus astrological sign.  After a little investigation into Taurus babies...I figured out why I'm still pregnant - they are STUBBORN!  So, I guess Rob and I will continue to wait it out and soak up the last few days of being a family of 2. 

All this free time, also made me think of an article our birth instructor encouraged us to read called "40 Reasons to go the Full 40".  So with the help of the intranet, I quickly found the article and feel much better about baby boy still being inside my tummy.  While lots of of times I find my mind wandering to the negative/complaining part of still being pregnant - I thought I would also try to remember all the great things about being 40 weeks pregant.  Some of those things include....

-Birthing a brainy baby!  A baby born at 35 weeks has a brain that is devloped only 2/3 of what a full term baby's brain would be
-Breastfeeding Boost...term babies are better at catching onto breastfeeding.
-I have a pretty convenient excuse for any mood swings, food cravings, and general craziness that might happen.
-This belly also gets me a pretty comfy seat wherever we go - people are quick to give up seats/offer better ones to a mama with a big ol' belly :)
-Going 40 weeks reduces the baby's chances for jaundice, infection, and low blood sugar
-More time in the womb may mean less time in the hospital
-Rob continues to do most of the cleaning, lifting, vacuming, and general up keep around the house
-No one really questions when I want a nap (which is often :)
-Speaking of naps - with the baby still in my belly - they are uninterrupted...which I know will change when baby arrives.
-I'm shamelessly wearing all my favorite stretchy/comfy clothes!
-Propping up my I-Pad/catching any crumbs...my burgeoning belly makes the perfect shelf for balancing my I-Pad while I watch my new favorite show Scandal (Kerry Washington is fabulous!)
-Indulging in some last minute shopping...both online and in real life (did we decide how many maxi skirts is too many?)
-Pedicures are still a must - I can't be going to the hospital with gnarly looking toenails!
-Traveling without buckling/rebuckling the car seat

So...while we would love to meet baby boy - we will happily continue to wait until he wants to make his appearance.  If nothing else - we head back to the doctor on Monday.  We will also get an added ultrasound to make sure everything is still looking good (i.e. having enough ammniotic fluid) and I will have to take a Non-Stress Test where they monitor fetal heart rate.  If everything looks good - they will let me go until Wedneday May 8 - at that point we have a scheduled induction.  Any way you look at it - in less than a week Baby Hauck will be here! 
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